This is His

Written by Debbie Dittrich  |  3 comments  |  Following Him


What do you cling to with all of your might? What takes all of your strength to keep as yours?

What makes you cry out and up and shout all about, “This is mine…

This child is mine
This un-forgiveness is mine
This husband is mine
This health is mine
This pleasure is mine
This money is mine
This house is mine
This life is mine
This anger is mine
This path is mine
This dream is mine

…I will not let it go and You, God, cannot have it!”

I remember like it was yesterday- half my life ago after my second divorce- driving in the pouring rain, hardly able to see for the tears streaming down my cheeks, screaming up to God in heaven with my fist clenched in mid-air as if to make my point, “I am going to be happy if it is the last thing I ever do! I will have this man no matter what it takes and You can’t stop me. I deserve this!”

Clenched fist. Gritted teeth. They tell a tale.

And that which I grasped so tightly slipped right through my fingers. The desire to keep that which I thought would bring me life, brought me right to the brink of suicide. Like Gallum in Lord of the Rings, I became deformed by my obsession to obtain that which I craved, as I cried out continually, “My precious! My precious!”

Matthew 16:24-25
“Then Jesus said to His disciples, ‘If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever wishes to save his life shall lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake shall find it.”

If you are desperate to gain that which you think will bring you true life and joy, let me remind you today that unless it is Christ, you will lose it. The truth is this, your obsession is nothing more than doubt. You doubt that God not only can give you the pleasure you so desire but you doubt that He is the pleasure you so desire. And my sweet friend, doubt will always deform, while faith will always transform.

Whatever your “this” is today let it go. Say to your heart, “This is His. It is not mine. I will not seek to take that which He has not given, nor cling to that which He would take.”

Un-clinch those fists. Open wide your hands. You have no idea what He might fill them up with! Only open hands can receive what He so freely gives…true life, abundant life, found only in Christ.

“I came that they might have life and might have it abundantly.” John 10:10


Comments (3)
  1. Written by Terri Holley
    March 23, 2013

    Hi Debbie,

    So glad you posted about this. How can we know that we have turned over someone or something to Christ? Is it just saying a prayer like you have described above? I have a passion for my horse and trailriding that seems to get stronger each year instead of going away! I feel the Lord wants to use this as a way to minister to the lost which are all around me wherever I ride. I am also in a riding club (secular). This has been on my mind for about 5 years we used to camp with our horses on the weekends and I thought about starting a weekend cowboy church wherever we camped but it never happended and we don’t have a way to camp right now so we haven’t been in a few years. Any thoughts on how I might pray about turning over my horse and activities to the Lord and know that I am doing what his will is for me I would appreciate so much. Thnks Debbie and blessing to you. Terri

  2. Written by Debbie Dittrich
    March 23, 2013

    Terri, I will answer here, but you have my private email too, so if you need further help do let me know.
    First of all, when thoughts just don’t go away, like your desire to use your horses for ministry, I find that usually that is of the Lord. Let me clarify here….some thoughts don’t go away but they are clearly “of the flesh”, in other words, for selfish gain or immorality or something to build self up. Those would not be of the Lord.
    But when I continue to have thoughts about how I might do something for the Lord, then I “take the next step” by praying to Him and just telling Him what is on my heart. For example, “Lord, if this horse ministry idea is from You, then I want to go forward. Would you show me the next step to take if this is from You and if it is not, would you remove these thoughts?”
    We had an idea to build a cabin to give missionaries and pastors free vacations. We prayed all the time for the Lord to show us how to do that….we prayed for 10 years! And finally He moved and showed us how to do that.
    I hope that makes sense. Terri, I find the best way to approach God is just like you approach me. You don’t know me, but you reached out to me and we’ve had several conversations. I talk to God about anything and everything that comes to my mind. I tell Him exactly how I feel and tell Him my questions. For example I might say, “Lord, I don’t know if these thoughts about the horse ministry are from You, but one thing is sure, if You are speaking, I want to hear. Would You speak loud and clear so that I know it is You? Would You teach me how to hear Your voice so that I can obey You quickly?”
    Let me know how I can help, Terri! I love your questions and your heart.
    In Him,

  3. Written by Terri Holley
    March 23, 2013

    Thank you Debbie that is very helpful.

    I appreciate your taking time so fast to answer me.

    In Him,

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